Running Army Wife

I'm not saying you should too. Get rid of your countdown, I mean. If you have one. But I had to. Here's the thing about deployment countdowns.. they can make you focus so much on how much time is left until that day that you'll be happy he's home, that you might forget how to be happy now . Day before I said goodbye. At my brother's really cold and windy rugby game. Oh.. those bangs. :/ And time goes slower when you know the exact date. Believe me, it's true. I had a little dashboard widget on my mac. Now it just has a count-up since I last saw him and a countdown to the marathon. I don't think that counting up is bad. You'll probably see a happy tweet from me when it's been 5 months since I said goodbye to James at the end of R&R. Woohoo! Another month that we've conquered! That's different. When I had the countdown, I looked at it way too often. I got rid of it about half-way through the deployment. I cannot tell you how much ...

I've been getting this a lot lately. How do I deal with it? I mean, really? Half the time I feel like I have no idea. Most times I tell people that I just try to stay busy (and do stuff like run a lot). And obviously that does help. But it's a lot more than that. I've been following a lot of military spouses and girlfriends on twitter the past few weeks. I thought it might help since I'm not near a military community right now. Do you know what I've seen? A lot of pain, loneliness, and probably depression (although of course I can't diagnose that from tweets alone I suppose). It sounds really romantic for our significant other to be our  everything . But what happens when our everything is gone for 12 months? Deployments last a long time. That's a long time to be sad and lonely. And it reminds me of this: source When our men are our  everythings , we look like Bella. Don't get me wrong: James is still a priority in my life. I've sent him a ...

"I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances." - Phil 4:11 Do you ever feel like maybe God is trying to tell you something? Like when idea or suggestion repeatedly keeps on revealing itself to you? Like a gentle nudge toward something?  Well. This time, I'm pretty sure God has been slapping me in the face trying to get my attention. Everywhere I feel like I'm getting the same message. Be content with where you are.  My parents got me the book Faith Deployed . That book, Power of a Praying Wife , my journal, and my Bible have all been my go-to books lately.  And I feel like God has come at me from all sides. I heard it in the scripture I read, the Faith Deployed  devo I read just yesterday was about Contentment...I went shopping at Lululemon today and even my bag was telling met to live in the moment.  Here's the thing. As I've been going through The Power of a Praying Wife , I'm realizing that I'm praying more for ...