Thursday, April 12, 2012

Pure Bliss

So um.. may not be posting much for a few weeks. :)
<3 Amy

Monday, April 9, 2012

"How do you cope?" (Bella vs Hermione)

I've been getting this a lot lately. How do I deal with it? I mean, really? Half the time I feel like I have no idea. Most times I tell people that I just try to stay busy (and do stuff like run a lot). And obviously that does help. But it's a lot more than that.

I've been following a lot of military spouses and girlfriends on twitter the past few weeks. I thought it might help since I'm not near a military community right now. Do you know what I've seen? A lot of pain, loneliness, and probably depression (although of course I can't diagnose that from tweets alone I suppose).

It sounds really romantic for our significant other to be our everything. But what happens when our everything is gone for 12 months? Deployments last a long time. That's a long time to be sad and lonely. And it reminds me of this:

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When our men are our everythings, we look like Bella. Don't get me wrong: James is still a priority in my life. I've sent him a care package of goodies every single week that he's been gone and my sleep schedule is really messed up from talking to him late at night online. And I'm still gonna have really bad days when I feel like curling up in a fetal position and crying all day.

But, I think I'm happy. Happy? Really? Yes. How? My husband is doing what God's called him to do. He's a hero defending our freedom... and looking oh so sexy in his uniform. He's in God's hands. I'm in God's hands. Basically I'm learning that more trust in God equals more contentment with the situation. Some days I trust God more than other days. And on the days that I don't as much, I look like Bella. My husband was never meant to be my everything; God is meant to be my everything. And God's never going to have to leave.

Also, Hermione is so much cooler than Bella anyway. I want to be more like Hermione. I just have some half marathons and a marathon to conquer instead of Voldemort. :)

<3 Amy

Sunday, April 8, 2012

Happy Easter!

This video is a beautiful. Watch it. It's worth the 18 minutes. 
Also, you might possibly want to have some tissues ready. 

Our God's not dead, he's surely Alive. 
<3 Amy 

Monday, April 2, 2012

Chi Town Half Marathon: Pacers and Port-a-Potties

New half marathon PR!! woohoo! Sadly the only picture I have for you is the one below for now. Haven't gotten pics from my father-in-law yet. Isn't the shirt and medal pretty though? 
My official time ended up being 1:54:47 (8:45 average)! A PR by almost 4 minutes! Yay! The weather was beautiful. The course was beautiful (up Chicago's north shore). The only thing missing was my sherpa-photographer husband running next to me, cheering me on and infuriating me by not being out of breath at all. Sad smile.

My goal was actually to stay with the 1:55 pace group. I started off with them and kept on checking my watch.. they were going too slow. I almost said something but I didn't want to sound like a jerk "um.. you aren't going fast enough." So I just decided to go at my own speed and if they caught up to me, then I would run with them. I only ran the first mile about 7 seconds faster than the pace group should have and I couldn't even see them when I turned around.

Before the race, I made friends with a lady in line for the port-a-potties. Turns out that she was planning on running with the same pace group! It was her first half marathon so we decided to try to run together. She found me after the craziness of the start, a little after mile 1. Since it was her first one, I think she wanted me to help push her, but she actually ended up pushing me. Since I didn't have that pace group, I'm not sure I would have been able to keep that pace up.
I started kind of feelin' the wall around mile 10 (as you can see my splits slow down). My friend kept going (as she should have, I'm glad I didn't slow her down) but I still tried to keep as close to her as possible. In that last quarter mile or so, I could tell that if I wanted to break 1:55, I was going to have to push it. That's why you can see that the last .16 were a little faster! I think that my watch auto-paused at a water station.. which is why the time doesn't line up exactly with the chip time. I met up with my port-a-potty friend afterwards and we congratulated each other and we are now facebook friends. Oh, I love how awesome the running community is sometimes.

And holy cow, I'm am still pretty sore and tight. Hopefully yoga tomorrow morning will help.

My lil brother did amazing too. It was his first half marathon and he ran a 1:45! I'm so proud of him. My other little brother had a rugby game, so my parents went to that. And my in-laws and brother-in-law and sister-in-law all came to support us. I'm really lucky to have married into such an awesome family. James texted me not long after the race asking how I did. And yep, he's pretty proud of me. :)

Also, according to my brother and sister-in-law, the pace group was a good couple minutes behind me. Moral of the story: don't trust the pacers. Oh, and make friends with people you meet in line at the port-a-potties. They might just help you PR.

<3 Amy